The Arabian sun will be waving its morning greetings soon but I am still awake because sleep evades me.
Someone close to my heart will be leaving soon. For good.
It’s true that people in our lives just come and go. But what if the person who will leave holds dear to you? And you know very well that that person will not coming back ever again. You will no longer see him or just watch him from afar. You can’t even steal glances and sigh.
The very thought of these are unbearable. But truth is to be told, no matter how painful it may seem.
What makes it all the more deafening is just watching that person go, unable to move like a spectator in a football game. Even when you saw a foul play in a game of your favorite football team and everybody else seems defiant, you can’t do anything about it. You may scream your heart out, but no one will hear you. Nobody will care. Because you have no right. You are only a Spectator.
And who am I to tell to that person not to leave? I don’t even have the courage to say goodbye to him. He’s life has all been intricately planned like a blueprint of the best Architect in the world, God. I can’t just barge in and ruin such plan.
The least I can do is to be happy for him and be thankful to have met a beautiful person like him. He may be out of my sight, I may not be hear his voice, see his smile, get in touch with him, or eventhough all these senses will be gone, I know that memories will be heightened. My memories of him may not be as rich as compared to his memories with others, I am still thankful that I have some of it to hold and to cherish.
It hurts to say goodbye but I have to face it. He may not know how much he means to me but a little of his affection that he has given me is more than enough.
I will truly miss him.